Heartfelt Thoughts from others:

Heartfelt Thoughts 
from others: 

 Dear younger me, 

Shared by permission of the writer.

To the girl who was too ashamed to look at herself, the one who could only see her own mistakes. The little child who thought she wasn't worthy of love. The hands that held a razor to cut herself oh so many times. To the fragile heart that couldn't see past the flaws of the past. 

You, yes you, you are the child that I am most proud of. You are incredible. The hurt you have been feeling, it will pass. As I look into my past I find you there in the corner crying because you care about what others think of you. You put your value and worth into their greedy hands. You in the future is better than you could have hoped. 

I want to say thank you for giving yourself all those chances, for never actually going through with all those plans to end the the gift of life. 

You in the future is the person who you wished you had growing up. You in the future is thoughtful and kind. The heart you have so many years later is stronger than you dared to believe. 

Be proud of your flaws and mistakes. They are what got you to today. You, younger me are the one I challenge. The child you were is not the child you are. For you see, we had a childhood taken away from us, we were forced to grow up oh so much faster than our peers. 

You know that you're different but you don't know why. You see being different as being an outcast, and you couldn't be farther from the truth. Being different is your biggest strength. 

You thrive in challenges and you conquer trials. Stop blaming yourself dear child for keeping secrets, you didn't know. Please trust me when I say you are a force to be reckoned with. One day soon you will understand that who you are is not defined by your flaws, by the past, by the ones who are close to you. 

No, sweet little me, the one that defines you, the one who holds your worth... He will never leave you, nor will he forsake you. Let go of your past and forgive yourself. 

You are a princess, a child of the King of Kings and Lord the Lords. He alone is the one who saves. He knows your flaws, but he calls you by your name. No more being ashamed. Young one, it's been 10 years of fighting to prove your worth. Ten years since you first realized you weren't who you wanted to be. Be proud of yourself. You've done so much. You are proud of yourself. You know your name. ❤

I want to thank everyone I have come in contact with for the past 19 years, without you, I assure you I would not be where I am today. Much love! Oh and btw, I'm extremely proud of who I was, who I am, and I am looking forward to seeing who I become. God bless.❤ #mylifeofhope #Godslittlegirl

Written by a girl at our church.

#Learningmoment from today;
Tonight I went to visit a friend and there were a few kids she was babysitting. I was glad to come help.

Anyway, one of the little girls got a piece of glass or metal stuck in her foot (it's out now and she's all better) but I was trying to help her and it ended up making me so upset that she wouldn't let anyone help her, it was kicking and screaming pretty much the whole time.

I eventually moved myself away from the scenario and #recollectedmythoughts. But it got me thinking... What am I holding onto in my own life, for fear it might hurt more than it does right now?

How many things are hindering my perception of life because I am #tooscaredtotrust those who want to help?

Am I going to carry the pain for years when I could have overcome it within a couple months instead?

The most amazing thing I took away from this learning experience is how much #Godlovesme.

While I'm kicking and screaming from the pain and fear constantly going through my head, He never fails to be right beside me wanting to take care of me.

As I keep resisting the unknown his perfect love is casting away all my fears.

Father, thank you for never giving up on me and never taking a break from my screaming. You are so much more patient than I am, and I can't thank You enough for never losing your grip on me.

Please teach me how to embrace the unknown and look forward to the challenges. Humble me so I can learn from those around me who want to help me and please give me opportunities to demonstrate the fruits of Your spirit. These are the desires of my heart tonight as I come to You. In your holy name, amen. 9/16/17

I WAS AN UNPLANNED GERMAN ORPHAN

I was an UNPLANNED post war German ORPHAN placed in 1956 and imported to America in 1961.

(My wife, Carla) (My birth-mother, Kathe on her 83rd birthday) (Me, Jack),  (My Uncle Walter)

This picture was taken during my first reunion with my German family. It was taken in Prenzlau,Germany, on our 1st meeting since my birth.

This picture is here in the USA, of my life-mother, Carol with her great-grand-daughter Audrey Grace.

I am So grateful to my Mother for carrying me! And I am grateful to get to know my German Family!

I am Also grateful to the Nuns that cared for me in the  #orphanage  in Stuttgart.

and I am Very, Very grateful for my life Mother who raised me and My Family here!

If I had not been orphaned and my mother had kept me, she would probably have returned home to be with her family. The video below depicts East Germany near Berlin in 1959. My family lives in East Germany just North of Berlin. The creation of the wall separated them from her. She could have returned but would have lost her freedom and I would have been trained to respect Political Correctness in the new Socialist State.

Like her, I value Freedom over Political Correctness.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I4Bxc72OCLo

For social conditions see video above

for political click link below.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kDYehE2x0EU

As an adopted orphan; both adoption and abortion are of great a concern to me. I relate personally to stories on these subjects, and there are many.

To see STORIES on ADOPTION REUNION

 and ABORTION SURVIVORS,

Click HERE >https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLc7nB8Z7S2L_ALQLTu7QahOkVjO2Zb5Py

To hear Gianna click video

      #adoptionreunion     #unplannedpregnancy     #familyreunited  

ON THIS QUESTION OF ABORTION, I CHALLENGE YOU TO CONSIDER...

THE WOMAN SEEKING TO ADOPT TEST

In as much as a woman should not be forced to seek a back alley abortion... No woman seeking a child should be forced to participate in or finance the abortion that ends the life of the child she longs for.  

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FAILED HOPES FOR COMPASSIONATE MIDDLE GROUND

Unlike many "conservatives", I held a glimpse of hope that during the Obama administration, this leader, who presented himself so effectively as a tolerant and highly skilled negotiator, might attempt to become a, "True Uniter." He had certainly won the hearts of Europe as evidenced by His Nobel Award.

Some in my family had warmly embraced his reasoning as hopeful and plausible. They saw in him a leader that would articulate the concerns of ALL WOMEN, and possibly right the injustices imposed through coercive government policies.

Perhaps he would end the involuntary subsidizing of abortion procedures. It seemed possible that through EXECUTIVE ORDER he would defund the compulsory portion of this largest taxpayer subsidized organization, and make Planned Parenthood "More-True" to its name.

How could he force women, that were seeking to adopt a child, to pay for the destruction of the very children they were hoping to adopt?

Historically, adopting a child is a very slow and difficult process that takes both time and money to complete. My Life mother Carol was able to circumvent much of the delay by going overseas.

According to the adoption Network organization website,

found at https://adoptionnetwork.com/

"The waiting period for a domestic adoption can span anywhere from several months to several years." 

Surely the right's of women seeking to adopt were also important to President Obama!

He could accomplish this easily through Executive Order. The tool he used so frequently to please other groups. 

An original of this post was presented on Google+ on September 29, 2015 

titled "A Modest Proposal."

The MOST FAMOUS EXECUTIVE ORDER in American history was the, "THE EMANCIPATION PROCLAMATION." It was issued by President Abraham Lincoln, on January 1, 1863. It freed more than 3 million predominantly black persons from the bonds of slavery. Since Abortion disproportionately ends the life of 3 black children to every one white child, it would seem that his powerful position was given for such a time as this. But sadly, this was not his view.

Instead he viewed the unplanned child as a punishment.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jszkPtsFH-k

I do not believe those that are waiting for children to adopt share his view.

While an EXECUTIVE ORDER to remove funding would not address the question of personhood. (the essential question in both the emancipation proclamation on slavery, and the abortion controversy.) 

It would be a step forward in demonstrating greater respect for all of humanity. Our stagnation on this issue has kept our nation divided and left the women seeking assistance increasingly vulnerable to an industry prone to abuse. 

 Although abortion is not altogether uncommon and happens spontaneously in the first four weeks in up to 1/5th of all pregnancies.  is very uncommon in the months that follow. Until recently, this "More Natural View on Abortion,"  has guided much of our policy making. But today, we are being led to ignore the patterns found in nature. 

Presently in New York, they are celebrating an expansion of perceived freedom for women as they legislated to accept extending the abortion without questions period to between six months and the moment of birth. 

But what about the women seeking to adopt, those who are unable to conceive, or those who spontaneously lose their child? Should they also celebrate, or be forced to pay for the product of the celebration?

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dT3ReR_dkGk

Like the one child policy of China, we have imposed a tyranny by "CHOICE" through an industry that targets many of our most vulnerable women. Instead of increased support and protection, current guidelines are being loosened for profiteers to exploit the fears of these women and harvest and sell the discarded bodies of their offspring.  

We are not unlike the "PROPERTY OWNERS," in the pre-emancipated south, who enshrined their abuses in the protection of Laws. Legislation is the lesson Hitler learned while imprisoned as he wrote Mein Kampf. In his second attempt he crafted socially biased laws to target those he viewed as Untermensch (subhuman), similar to our biase toward our neonatal neighbors. 

In the video below Candidate Obama, is contrasted with several of Planned Parenthood senior representatives. 

Sources full video clips at:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kL7FR... by Barack Oboma.com https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c9EU_... by The Center for Medical Progress

Do you see the disparity between stated goals and actual practice? In your mind, do these inconsistencies warrant further investigation or corrective action? How should the revelation of this information be handled?

Recently the reporters presenting themselves as research suppliers taped their conversations with Planned Parenthood executives. Instead of recognition for successful attempts at investigation and collecting evidence of wrongdoing. These "whistle blowers,"  were met with contempt and punishments and their evidence censored.

 
Pro-life Activists behind Undercover 
Planned Parenthood Videos Suffer Legal Setback 
 By MAIREAD MCARDLE  April 6, 2018)

see full article in link below.

https://www.nationalreview.com/news/pro-life-activists-behind-undercover-planned-parenthood-videos-suffer-legal-setback/

The reporter behind the undercover videos of executives in the abortion industry discussing the harvesting of fetal organs will continue to fight the gag order on the rest of the videos, after the Supreme Court rejected their appeal on Monday....

Daleiden was held in contempt of court last year after he posted one of the gagged videos showing an abortionist admitting that the fetus is “a person,” and abortion is “killing.” Other videos show abortion officials haggling over the price of fetal body parts with the activists, who posed as organ buyers.

Photo and full article source at:

https://www.nationalreview.com/news/pro-life-activists-behind-undercover-planned-parenthood-videos-suffer-legal-setback/

AN EXECUTIVE ORDER...

Addressing Planned Parenthood's failure to follow current regulations and forcing it and others to comply with Federal and State Law is essential for the safety of women. 

Some History on Abortion in America 

The abortion industry has a consistent record of failure to self regulate extending back to it's early days when Dr. Bernard Nathanson was director of the largest freestanding abortion facility in the world,

"The Center for Reproductive and Sexual Health in New York City, NY." 

In his books he describes many common careless and deceptive practices made possible due to the lack of regulation in the industry. These practices continued for decades after he left the facility. It was eventually closed after an accidental death revealed the absence of a supervising anesthesiologists, improper equipment and improper procedures for monitoring patients under anesthesia and resuscitation. The facility was never re-opened. 

Nathanson was a fervent Pro-Choice activist, and a founding member of (NARAL) the National Association for the Repeal of Abortion Laws (later renamed the National Abortion Rights Action League, and now known as NARAL Pro-Choice America) He also worked with Betty Friedan for the legalization of abortion in the United States prior to the Roe v Wade decision. 

 At that time, medical opinion held that the nervous system of the fetus during the 1st and 2nd trimester was undeveloped to the degree that it could not experience pain or react to the abortion procedures. The arrival of the ultrasound device for viewing the child in the womb proved that to be false.

Nathanson, an early proponent for the use of ultrasound devices became unable to continue his work. He left the abortion industry and eventually became a Pro-Life Activist.

He wrote the book , Aborting America where he first exposed what he called "the dishonest beginnings of the abortion movement." In 1984, he directed and narrated a film titled The Silent Scream, in cooperation with the National Right to Life Committee, which contained the ultrasound video of a late term abortion. 

( to view, right click and open in a new window)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gON-8PP6zgQ

His second documentary Eclipse of Reason dealt with late-term abortions.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_nff8I2FVnI

( to view, right click and open in a new window)

Hear Charlton Heston's views 

in video above  

 Nathanson is often quoted as saying: 

"Abortion is "the most atrocious holocaust in the history of the United States." 

Some might say that defunding Planned Parenthood is merely an attempt to play politics with health care services. That Defunding Planned Parenthood would take away access to care.

But let's remember, Planned Parenthood is a mammoth organization incorporating thousands of volunteers, and

VOLUNTEERISM IS A FREE PEOPLE'S GREATEST FORM OF EXPRESSION!

It should not be underestimated. 

But freedom from coercion is also a most basic components of a free society. 

Since we are not at war with the unborn, we should not be involuntarily forced to participate in their exploitation and demise. 

PRESIDENT TRUMP WRITES AN 

"EXECUTIVE ORDER" 

"to defund,"

"ONLY THE ABORTION ASPECT" 

of Planned Parenthood, 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LYN1Zhg09z0

AMAZING THAT IT WAS 

TRUMP NOT OBAMA

THAT ESTABLISHED 

GENUINE MIDDLE GROUND

ACCORDING TO 

THE ADOPTIVE MOTHER TEST

In as much as a woman should not be forced to seek a back alley abortion... No woman seeking a child should be forced to participate in or finance the abortion that ends the life of the child she longs for.  

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The following is a lengthy article talking about challenges and difficulties abortion workers and physicians face including threats and violence, and the hazards to patients that repeatedly occur due to poor regulation and poor self monitoring by select colleagues in the industry.

The New Yorker    A Reporter at Large   February 3, 2014 Issue

A Botched Operation

Steven Brigham’s abortion clinics keep being sanctioned for offering substandard care. Why is he still in business?

By Eyal Press

see article at:

http://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2014/02/03/a-botched-operation

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The following originally posted on Google + on May 25, 2016

FORSAKING SANCTUARY

BECAUSE WE ARE HUMAN, 

(some?) 

THEREFORE HAVE RIGHTS

Photo source:

 https://www.americanprogress.org/issues/religion/news/2013/02/27/54696/misusing-religious-freedom-to-cloak-intolerance/

On December 6th of 2011, former Secretary of State, Hillary Clinton spoke before the United Nations in Geneva Switzerland, giving what is considered to be her most famous speech. There she stated:

"All human beings are... free and equal in dignity and rights.. Rights, not conveyed by government, but the birthright of all people....

BECAUSE WE ARE HUMAN, WE THEREFORE HAVE RIGHTS,

and because we have rights, Governments are bound to protect those rights... and allow freedom for the full expression of those rights.... "Today I want to talk to you about the work we have left to do to protect one group of people... in many ways, they are an invisible minority... Many are treated with contempt and violence by their fellow citizens while authorities empowered to protect them look the other way... "

Are you familiar with this speech? Is she saying that she is committed to protecting the rights of every human subject to violence or death due to discrimination? NO SHE IS NOT!

Here she is acknowledging the historical plight of the global LGBT population, and rightfully so; for the profound suffering many have endured.

But even as she strives to bring recognition to one group of hidden persons, she champions the destruction of another, as she continues to oppose any form of legal or social protections that would hinder their destruction. Another, much larger segment of our population: Those vulnerable to elective abortion among us.

Why are these humans residing in their mother's womb, deprived of their rights?

Is it our birth or our humanity that makes us deserving of dignity, freedom, and human rights?

As a human doesn't my birthright include my right to be born?

The sanctuary of the womb is experienced by every human, regardless of race, creed or gender description. It is the natural place of nurturing and protection foundational to all positive human experience.

I heartily agree with the sentiments of Hillary's speech, but unlike Hillary or Bernie, I believe that every human, regardless of race, creed or gender description deserve dignity equality and the freedom to peruse their rights as LIVING HUMAN BEINGS whether wanted by the powerful people in their life or not.

See Hillary's statement on the rights of humans in the womb at, http://dailycaller.com/2016/04/03/hillary-unborn-babies-do-not-have-rights-video/

Bernie Sanders statement on the rights of humans in the womb at,

http://dailycaller.com/2016/04/03/sanders-unborn-children-do-not-have-rights-video/?utm_campaign=thedcmainpage&utm_source=Facebook&utm_medium=Social

See her full LGBT speech at.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WIqynW5EbIQ

If these discrepancies disturb you can seek more information at sites like http://lifepac.org/ss1/ and contact your Representatives to let them know your concerns. You can certainly vote and...

If not, you are not alone.

The theme of compassion combined with an avoidance of bearing the cost and the possibility of a research benefit is not a new motivation. 

This Platinum Award-winning documentary reviews the extremely progressive culture that became dominant among Western Academia preceding Hitlers Holocaust. This film made for nursing education also describes how nurses used their professional skills.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rz8ge4aw8Ws

The next link is to an extended article on the T4 program. It presents it's founders, and it's social application and social responses including church response. It is well worth the read.

https://haciendapublishing.com/medicalsentinel/cost-effectiveness-killing-overview-nazi-euthanasia

following excerpts and photo from:

https://ahrp.org/medicalized-murder-mentally-or-physically-disabled-adults/

The Charitable Foundation for Curative and Institutional Care 

was headquartered at 4 Teirgartensstrasse in Berlin. 

As part of the 1939 Action T4 program it utilized Germany's entire healthcare system. T4 mobilized Germany's Public Health System including her Public Health officials, public and private hospitals, mental institutions and nursing homes. 

T4  Nurses Hadamar

Questionnaires were distributed to elicit diagnostic, prognostic and genetic information to be reviewed by prominent “medical experts” and used to select patients diagnosed with incurable mental or physical handicaps. 

Aktion T4 demonstrated the willingness of academics like physicians, nurses and other civil and public servants to participate in what they viewed as merciful euthanasia.

Dr. Victor Brack defended his medical practice during Action T4 at the Nuremberg Trials stating: 

“We welcomed the program because it was based on the ethical principle of sympathy and had humane considerations in its favor."

Hartheim Castle in Austria was one of six killing centers; it was converted into a Aktion T4 center with gas chamber and crematorium. It was in operation for the longest period, and accounted for 30,000 victims.

Hartheim Center

All of these viewed their actions as progressive, responsible, act of good citizenship and even compassion. But today we clearly see it was something else. How is it that we are so easily blinded by our own actions at the very time we are busy doing them? 

May God help us. Without Him we are Lost!

A VERY BIG THANK YOU!

To all my peers at Unity...Thank you so much!

It took me a little time to process my thoughts, and by then my E-mail was closed and I didn't want to leave it unsaid, so...

Thank you Aimee and Beth and everyone who contributed! I can't begin to express the gratitude that I felt with your generous gifts and your displays of recognition and appreciation at my retirement party! The gifts were PERFECT! I was truly overwhelmed! Thank you so much for your kindness, your presence, your hugs and your good-wishes!

Many of you expressed surprise and some were saddened with my decision to suddenly retire as I was so intensely engaged in efforts to influence and improve our PES environment. If you were counting on me to be there, I apologize.

Most of you also know that these last few months were very challenging for me, (as they were for all of us after the OHA audit), and how the OHA bump in the road abruptly shifted our focus. From a clear focus of stabilizing our city's most vulnerable patients... To one of demonstrating compliance with the ever so tedious task of searching for the correct locations in the randomly organized, multifaceted non-emergent computer charting system to record our redundancies. Although I am certain that the data miners are thrilled. This was something I had hoped to avoid by leaving floor nursing.

I want you all to know that through this time I personally found everyone in the nursing field at Unity, including my manager extremely supportive, both personally and professionally. Among those I especially appreciated due to their timely actions were each of my charge nurses, Kevin, Sarah, Elisha, Jeff and Jen.  Thank you Jen for normalizing the idea of filling in every box, even when COMPLETELY REDUNDANT. I needed that to survive. (It still makes no sense to me)

Thank you Kevin for your unique openness and friendship and for helping me to see the big picture in how to get organized on the EPIC system. I appreciated your kindness and persistence in checking my efforts and offering respectful and supportive encouragement. I appreciated your willingness to trust me as we team worked with many of our most difficult people. 

Thank you Elisha, Sarah and Jeff for standing up for me specifically and for all of us Nurses in general as you responded to  situations where Corrective Actions were taken against acceptable but uniquely prioritized nursing practices. Good Job on seeking and obtaining greater representation! You guys are amazing! This is the first time that I have heard of a group unionizing to obtain greater freedom to pursue excellence in serving their community! Usually it is about wages or vacations! I hope that the Legacy Organization realizes what an asset they have in you and listens carefully to your insights in the future!

I also want to thank you Aimee. I appreciate the confidence and faith you placed in me. I am grateful for the opportunity to grow and adapt as we opened the PES and as you know I enjoyed thinking on my feet and applying my skills in the ever changing ED setting. It was a challenge that I feel we all grew into. Thank you for your efforts in helping me to overcome the obstacles that came up, and the graciousness that you extended in our meetings. I appreciate the times that you went to bat for me when there were misunderstandings with medical staff.

So what was the problem?  And, why did I decide to leave? ...

In  my practice, my Nursing Goal in the PES was simple. Of course there is safety and labs and meds and all the rest... and then there was my patient stabilization goal...

"To connect with, and to identify and explore a reasonable Hope."

which could be as simple as 
(fully enjoying)... smell, feel, taste, and 
describe the effect,
 of a cup of tea together, 
(i.e.... grounding before directing or problem solving) 

To be honest, with the busy-ness of the additional computer tasks I found that I was no longer taking the time to accomplish my stabilization goal. I was not consistently doing both. I could do one, or the other, but often I could not do both.

I also found that doing med audits for four months placed me under suspicion with our medical staff and their confidence in my actions and assessments seemed to have evaporated. Eventually my actions, statements and decisions were being questioned by some on a near daily basis. I was even accused of lying about the side effects I observed. As you can imagine, this saddened me. But later when the patient,  expressed great relief and gratitude for the effectiveness of the medication I (wrongly) gave. I was very glad I followed my training and instincts. Instincts which also led to my leaving.

Since the options in life do not include Do-Over's, and I had just spent four months proving myself only to have a very negative outcome, it seemed best to leave and reap the benefits of my other investments.

(Did I tell you I just bought a new windsurf board?)

So I end with a suggestion on how to have greater unity at Unity.

Please be patient as I try to illustrate.

The culture at my previous hospital was influenced by a mission statement..., "To demonstrate in human form the healing ministry of Jesus Christ." which was often referred to as, "SACRED WORK." This mission attempts to capture ideas of "moral truth," like healing, comfort, compassion and patience, e.t.c...

Legacy's culture which extends to Unity, promotes ideals of, Social Justice, which are also held by many in a sense as, "SACRED WORK," and presented in the statement... "ABOVE ALL, we will do THE RIGHT THING." The status of sacredness can be seen in our fervency to display reverent social etiquette toward marginalized groups, much like the reverent speech displayed in many formal prayers. The "moral truth" extended... Intense Fairness.

Whether every individual in the organization personally holds either of these messages as sacred was actually unimportant. In reality they serve as identity markers to rallying forms of focused altruistic effort. 

Unfortunately it is also the nature of humanity to harbor mistrust and form judgments and then reward or punish along perceived lines of allegiance. I saw this at AMC toward a peer who jokingly coined the phrase, "badventist," and I believe this happens often at Unity toward anyone that does not show enough zeal in their displays of reverence toward cultural change.

Is it possible to humbly and respectfully disagree on some perceptions of morality? Or do we all have to be beaten into the same mold? The Following TED talk is very good on this topic.

 it can be found at: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vs41JrnGaxc



If you think that the main point of the talk is to create punishments that will be effective in bringing greater fairness, then you are still lost in the Matrix. 
The challenging question is... 
Setting aside his personal tastes on religious systems and going back to the data. Is it better to function on two channels and ignore the other three, or recognize and UTILIZE ALL FIVE and WEIGHT THEM PROPERLY on a MOMENT TO MOMENT basis? 

Which leads to my final suggestion, to bring greater fairness and unity to Unity... 

Create a hybrid Mission Statement like...

 "Above All, We Will Respect Human Dignity, 

As Our Sacred Duty."

We will humbly respect...

The dignity of our patients, their families and their circumstance, and not ridicule.

The dignity of our peers, providers, managers, even if we disagree strongly with them on what we feel are very important issues

The dignity of those who serve among us in other capacities.

Hopefully this would result in a refrain from gossip and derision and segregating from, or singling out those who hold differing values. If we were to extend the benefit of graciousness rather then scolding or judgmental criticisms and avoid punitive action toward those who hold differing opinions. This would also be a great step toward,  "Intense Fairness."

  

Again, Thank you ALL and May God Bless us each and every one!